Last year, during the month of May, I had been to Ayurmana, Trivandrum, Kerala, for treating my depression. This year too I planned for the same. And I'm back to this wonderful place, which gave me the strength to proceed with my divorce, by making me realise the realities that I'm going through. This time I have to treated for rheumatoid arthritis as well apart from depression.
I reached Ayurmana, on May 4th and will be here for three weeks, expecting more miracles. But, this time a new me has come here; my depression has gone up like anything and I'm a bigger challenge for the doctors over here. The normal phrases like "You should live for yourself", "You should consider your daughter", or "You should prove to them that you can do well without them" are not helping my brain. But they have been trying. I feel a little better now, after 10 days being here, though not fully. But, the rheumatoid arthritis is very well getting under control.
After a week with me here, Maria is away with Mr.D.. He has developed a sudden feeling of love for her after I told him that I filed for divorce from him. He says that he is very upset with the fact that I'm not sharing my travel schedules with him; he is forgetting the fact that I have decided not to be bound with him anymore.
I have got Magic Seeds by Naipul with me and am enjoying the lone time reading though I'm worried about the emotional blackmail that would be practiced by Mr.D. and family onto her. At times, I'm sitting at my laptop, listening to Leonard Cohen's Dance me to the end of life. The man is awesome and making me feel his voice traversing throught the beautiful lyricas!
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