I have been listening to Dr.Ramani Durvasula on NPD.
I'm understanding the patterns that had happened to me in my childhood and in the marriage.
To be with
- an abusive mother,
- an abusive brother who could even try his sexual fantasies on me (and the mother who kept quite even when she knew this, supporting her son),
- and the abusive spouse who bestowed me with domestic violence and blamed me for his violent and manipulative behaviors,
is what my life looked like till a few months past.
But now, I'm understanding that none of them were MY MISTAKES.
Mother and brother walked away from my life (nor even calls me) on their own and I'm getting the marital divorce.
And hence, I have taken the measures for myself to be away from my abusers. And I'm trying to heal on my own.
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