O, My Weirdly Wired Brain!

Have you ever had a badly wired brain?
Ever ever in your life, a brain so insane?
I have one, if you haven't seen one,
Lifeless and tangled neurons, buried in ton.

What harm does this brain cause?
Multitudes of harms, wrapped in gauze.
Devastations and grieves, a life no goal,
Tearing your mind, body, and soul, as a whole.

It makes you cry, you not knowing why,
It makes you frown, for days you in awry.
You get that sad face, smiles begone,
The body aches, for reasons unknown.

You stare at texts, fighting the liar,
Unable to read, contents simpler prior.
Equations forgotten, experiments paused,
You not knowing why, the results falsified.

It makes you confused, self pitying full day,
Negativity turmoils, worthlessness at peak.
Your speech go bad, ideas repeated,
Forgetting words, lines unfinished.

Emptiness paramounts, inches falling apart,
Dejected, heartbroken and in despair.
A demon within tells, "You Unwanted,
Why live this life", and you feel abandoned.

Have you ever had a badly wired brain?
I have one, a weirdly wired brain.
It makes me lie that I'm fine,
But I'm crying, alone in pain.

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NB: I'm at Ayurmana, on a treatment for my depression. Here an unexpected calmness is surrounding me here. Something is making me peace with myself, I feel. More about Ayurmana, once I'm back to Mumbai.